I just met with a therapist for the first time - and after telling him that I drink socially and smoke marijuana often, he told me to admit that I’m an addict. He said I need to wave the white flag, give in, and admit that I’m not in control of my life.
I don’t necessarily think I’m an addict, but maybe he’s right. If I’m around weed, I’ll smoke it. I don’t just do it to cope, but sometimes that’s the case and that’s when I need to stop.
I realize that for this to work, I’ll need to stop cold turkey. Frankly, I’m not sure that I want to do that, but I realize it’s the right thing.
This blog will help me get there, I hope. Maybe I’ll never write in it again, and maybe I’ll use it every day. i hope it’s the latter. Right now, it’s for me. at some point - maybe I’ll open it up to other people.